Life of a lost lover.

Updated

2009-09-22T18:13:00.000-07:00

Hi all , been a long time since i last updated again , sorry about that lol.

So far everything is well for me D: enjoying my workkk!

If you happen to pass by the subordinate courts do give me a call! he-he!

Loves,
L.

Finally..

2009-07-22T08:18:00.001-07:00

After 4 1/2 months , i've finally PROMOTED AND PASSED OUT! RAWRRRRRRRRRR!!!

POC OHHHHHHHHH!

Thank god for the life in the police. D: !

Anyway , sorry for not blogging often , im having some plans to redesign the whole website , probably make my blog full-flash! :D so stay tune for changes. hehe.

- L

So , you know what i've been keeping,
What now?
I do not know .
Never do i wanna see you lonely or sad again,
let me take you away , far away..
Will you stretch out your hand and say yes?

POP!

2009-06-26T05:09:00.000-07:00

Oh yeah , just received my POP Date! its 22/07/2009! WOOO!!! FINALLY!

Monday is my law exam , please pray for me kay? :(

Loves,
L.

Bored loser. HAHA.

2009-06-22T07:32:00.000-07:00

I'm here to blog for Leon the botak man.
HAHA.
Anyway, his day was practically BORING.
He did some retarded test thing.
Then his lecturer was not there.
So he &his mates started talking about gay porn.
Ooooh. I wonder what is it about. :O
Then they talked about the 9year old that got pregnant &all sorts of nonsense.
Hmmm. &He's quite sad in army cause the food tastes the same though it looks different.

Ohkayyy. I'm signing off nowwwww.

Move Along?

2009-05-02T23:15:00.000-07:00

So , you said maybe ..
What was i gonna think after that?
sigh.

So are you gonna keep it strong , move along x2~

pfft.

And the world is becoming weirder and weirder everyday...

Updates again.. going back to camp in 3 hours.. sigh.

- L.

Personality Ttest!

2009-04-17T21:30:00.000-07:00

Portrait of an ESTJ - Extraverted Sensing Thinking Judging
(Extraverted Thinking with Introverted Sensing)

The Guardian

As an ESTJ, your primary mode of living is focused externally, where you deal with things rationally and logically. Your secondary mode is internal, where you take things in via your five senses in a literal, concrete fashion.

ESTJs live in a world of facts and concrete needs. They live in the present, with their eye constantly scanning their personal environment to make sure that everything is running smoothly and systematically. They honor traditions and laws, and have a clear set of standards and beliefs. They expect the same of others, and have no patience or understanding of individuals who do not value these systems. They value competence and efficiency, and like to see quick results for their efforts.

ESTJs are take-charge people. They have such a clear vision of the way that things should be, that they naturally step into leadership roles. They are self-confident and aggressive. They are extremely talented at devising systems and plans for action, and at being able to see what steps need to be taken to complete a specific task. They can sometimes be very demanding and critical, because they have such strongly held beliefs, and are likely to express themselves without reserve if they feel someone isn't meeting their standards. But at least their expressions can be taken at face-value, because the ESTJ is extremely straight-forward and honest.

The ESTJ is usually a model citizen, and pillar of the community. He or she takes their commitments seriously, and follows their own standards of "good citizenship" to the letter. ESTJ enjoys interacting with people, and likes to have fun. ESTJs can be very boisterous and fun at social events, especially activities which are focused on the family, community, or work.

The ESTJ needs to watch out for the tendency to be too rigid, and to become overly detail-oriented. Since they put a lot of weight in their own beliefs, it's important that they remember to value other people's input and opinions. If they neglect their Feeling side, they may have a problem with fulfilling other's needs for intimacy, and may unknowingly hurt people's feelings by applying logic and reason to situations which demand more emotional sensitivity.

When bogged down by stress, an ESTJ often feels isolated from others. They feel as if they are misunderstood and undervalued, and that their efforts are taken for granted. Although normally the ESTJ is very verbal and doesn't have any problem expressing themself, when under stress they have a hard time putting their feelings into words and communicating them to others.

ESTJs value security and social order above all else, and feel obligated to do all that they can to enhance and promote these goals. They will mow the lawn, vote, join the PTA, attend home owners association meetings, and generally do anything that they can to promote personal and social security.

The ESTJ puts forth a lot of effort in almost everything that they do. They will do everything that they think should be done in their job, marriage, and community with a good amount of energy. He or she is conscientious, practical, realistic, and dependable. While the ESTJ will dutifully do everything that is important to work towards a particular cause or goal, they might not naturally see or value the importance of goals which are outside of their practical scope. However, if the ESTJ is able to see the relevance of such goals to practical concerns, you can bet that they'll put every effort into understanding them and incorporating them into their quest for clarity and security.

Jungian functional preference ordering:

Dominant: Extraverted Thinking
Auxiliary: Introverted Sensing
Tertiary: Extraverted Intuition
Inferior: Introverted Feeling

ESTJ Relationships

ESTJs are very enthusiastic people who are driven to fulfill their obligations and duties, especially those towards their families. Their priorities generally put God first, family second, and friends third. They put forth a tremendous amount of effort to meet their obligations and duties, according to their priorities. They are dedicated and committed to their relationships, which they consider to be lifelong and unalterable. They like to be in charge, and may be very controlling of their mates and children. They have high esteem for traditions and institutions, and expect that their mates and children will support these as well. They have little patience and need for dealing with people who see things very differently from the ESTJ.

ESTJ Strengths

Generally enthusiastic, upbeat and friendly

Stable and dependable, they can be counted on to promote security for their families

Put forth a lot of effort to fulfill their duties and obligations

Responsible about taking care of day-to-day practical concerns around the house

Usually good (albeit conservative) with money

Not personally threatened by conflict or criticism

Interested in resolving conflict, rather than ignoring it

Take their commitments very seriously, and seek lifelong relationships

Able to move on after a relationship breaks up

Able to administer discipline when necessary

ESTJ Weaknesses

Tendency to believe that they are always right

Tendency to need to always be in charge

Impatient with inefficiency and sloppiness

Not naturally in tune with what others are feeling

Not naturally good at expressing their feelings and emotions

May inadvertantly hurt others with insensitive language

Tendency to be materialistic and status-conscious

Generally uncomfortable with change, and moving into new territories

ESTJs as Lovers

"To love means to open ourselves to the negative as well as the positive - to grief, sorrow, and disappointment as well as to joy, fulfillment, and an intensity of consciousness we did not know was possible before." -- Rollo May

When an ESTJ says "I do", you can bet that they will put forth a tremendous amount of effort and energy into fulfilling their commitment to the relationship. They seek stability and security in their lives, and once they have made a commitment, it is lifelong and unalterable. They bring with them into the relationship a strong and dependable nature, which is oriented in traditions and security. They are highly energetic people, who never seem to lose their energy when performing duties and fulfilling obligations.

ESTJs usually feel very strongly that they are right and that if everyone else would listen carefully to what the ESTJ has to say, then they would understand the way things really are, and the world would be a better place. Such a strong, confident self-image is an asset in many ways, but can also be a detriment in close interpersonal relationships, if the ESTJ's mate does not feel valued for their contributions as an individual. This is a potential pitfall for ESTJs, who should try to be aware of the fact that other people have things to offer, even if they do not exactly follow the ESTJ's way of thinking. If it's not possible to do this on a larger scale, the ESTJ should perhaps focus on this area with respect to their partner's contributions.

Sexually, the ESTJ is likely to be robust, enthusiastic, and athletic. They will tend to be traditional, and to expect sexual encounters on a relatively scheduled basis. They're likely to approach intimacy as a physical experience of closeness, rather than as an opportunity to express and receive expressions of love and affection. The ESTJ will probably have to work on remembering to express their feelings verbally, but their mate's appreciation will make it well worth it for those who do.

In many ways, ESTJs are Guardians and Protectors by nature. They enjoy shielding and protecting their families, and are usually quite good at it. Their partners will appreciate and enjoy the benefits of the ESTJ's efforts in this respect, but they may also resent the more controlling aspects of the ESTJ's personality, which goes along with their strong desire to shield their loved-ones. The ESTJ may consider it their duty to instruct their spouses how to behave or what attitude to take in certain situations, which may not be appreciated.

Conversely, the ESTJ freely gives approval and affirmation when they are happy or impressed with their mate's behavior. Whether positive or negative, the ESTJ's expression can be taken at face value, because these individuals are very honest and forthright about how the feel.

ESTJs enjoy spending time with others socializing, and are likely to strongly desire that their partners also take part in these social activities. They are especially interested in any event which is associated with the family, work, or any organization which the ESTJ is part of. Since they are social creatures, they're likely to bring an emphasis on socializing to the relationship - but only after all of their work is done.

ESTJs are not naturally in tune with what others are feeling, and they may even tend to be very unobservant in these respects. This can cause problems with mates who have a Feeling preference, who may feel hurt or neglected by the ESTJ. If these feelings are pointed out to the ESTJ as an important dynamic of the relationship, rather than harbored internally by the Feeler, the ESTJ is likely to attempt to be more aware of their mate's feelings and emotions.

The ESTJ gladly performs their duties in life, and wants to be appreciated for doing so. This is the greatest gift that their mates can give them - gratitude.

Although two well-developed individuals of any type can enjoy a healthy relationship, ESTJ's natural partner is the ISTP, or the INTP. ESTJ's dominant function of Extraverted Thinking is best matched with someone whose dominant function is Introverted Thinking. The ESTJ/ISTP combination is deal because it also shared the Sensing way of perceiving the world, but the ESTJ/INTP combination is also quite good. How did we arrive at this?

ESTJs as Parents

"You are the bows from which your children as living arrows are sent forth...
Let your bending in the archer's hand be for gladness;
For even as He loves the arrow that flies,
so He loves also the bow that is stable." -- Kahlil Gibran

ESTJs take their parenting responsibilities seriously, and enjoy the roles and duties which they are consequently presented with. The ESTJ sees parenthood as a natural state, and welcomes the opportunity to fulfill their basic obligation to pass on their genes, and to raise children to be responsible, independent adults.

ESTJs usually expect that parents should be parents, and children should be children. There is likely to be that parent-child barrier between the ESTJ and their kids, and they are likely to expect that their children will treat them with respect and honor. They will have no patience for extreme deviation from this basic rule.

ESTJs also do not have much tolerance for inefficiency or messiness. They dislike to see mistakes repeated. Consequently, ESTJ parents may have a difficult time with their children who have Intuitive or Perceiving preferences. They are extremely practical, and have no understanding or value for the creative imaginations of highly Intuitive children. They will also have little patience with the unstructured, "go with the flow" attitude of their Perceiving children. This impatience with other types is a potential downfall for the ESTJ which may manifest itself in an ugly way if the rift occurs with their own children. The ESTJ should remember that what is right for them is not necessarily right for their children.

Whatever difficulties an ESTJ may experience with their child, they will always accept that child back as their own. They are strongly driven to fulfill their duties, and see parenting as one of these "must do" obligations.

Children of the ESTJ will usually remember them as dependable, reliable, strict, traditional, and always willing to sacrifice themself for the sake of their children.

ESTJs as Friends

Although ESTJs typically put their family above their friends, they do enjoy and value their friendships. They enjoy having fun and spending time with others, especially those who share their interests and pursuits. They are likely to choose to spend free time with friends pursuing some activity or hobby - probably athletic or sports-oriented. They're likely to socialize quite a bit with their own family members, and with people who belong to the same organization or institution as the ESTJ.

ESTJs are usually status-conscious, and will respect others who they feel have acheived a high degree of success in our society. Although ESTJs have very high standards for behavior, and believe that they know what is appropriate and best in any given situation, they're likely to be less controlling with those who they feel are powerful individuals.

ESTJs will have little patience with people who seem frivolous or extremely untraditional. Conversely, those who live entirely in the current moment (Sensing Perceivers) may not appreciate the ESTJ's strong judgments, which may seem overly traditional to them. ESTJs are likely to bond best with other ESTJ, or with people of any type, if they share a common interest or goal.

ESTJs tend to be enthusiastic, sharp, and witty. They like to hear good jokes, and enjoy telling them as well. They're valued by their friends for being dependable and upbeat, and easily engaged in various pursuits.

The ESTJ is generally very opinionated, and likes to appear authoritative and in charge. They may temper this tendency when around other ESTJs whom they value. Around other types, this tendency may cause them to be abrupt and direct, to the point where they inadvertantly step on people's toes.

It's Tingya again!

2009-04-10T20:33:00.000-07:00

Hello Readers,
It's tingya the saviour of this blog again!

Anyone wondered why is Leon soo emo recently???
I don't know too. ):
Awww......

LEON SMILE...................................................
TMr WILL BE A BRIGHTER DAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.

Don't sad liao pls....
Very zzzzzzzzzzz leh.

SMILE LEON.
SMILE LEON
SMILE LEO
SMILE LE
SMILE L
SMILE
SMIL
SMI
SM
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smile please......
:D

Going in again..

2009-03-28T23:09:00.000-07:00

Hey all , thanks for all of your encouragement and concern yeah!

I'm still doing good in there , abit boring but yeah , every man must go through this..
in another few hours ill be back in there and locked for the week again lol.
Man i really feel so thankful that every week i can attend service , his presence never fails to touch and refresh me , its really so worth it .

Yeah , on top of that , i love my cellgroup E267 loads! ^^

When i was lost , you found me.
When i was far , you drew near to me.
I'm complete now with you in life .
Thank you , beautiful saviour~

When i said that i loved you , i meant every single word i said,
i know it'll be hard to show you what i meant by that,
but i just wanna tell you , it has always been you.

Yours always,
L.

Moody.

2009-03-27T09:10:00.000-07:00

Three words , I love you.

Why? sigh.

If no is all i'm ever gonna hear , then sorry i won't be alright.

A Beach visioned for you with life all around it , now it has been sunk down deep into the sea...

Yours always,
L.

Finally home!

2009-03-20T08:20:00.000-07:00

Omgosh im finally home! lol , its been 11 days ! anyone miss me? =D

Its been hell inside..

Thats all i have for you future NS guys..

Update more tomorrow~

Yours always ,
L.

My Life Would Suck Without You

2009-03-19T07:28:00.000-07:00

Muahahahhahaaa, it's me again. Tingya!
I'm here to revive this dying blog again!

Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
SOmething inspired me to post this song on Leon's blog.. Hahha
Since Leon's not around .. Muahahahahah I'm gonna corrupt his blog with Kelly Clarkson's new single

MY LIFE WOULD SUCK WITHOUT YOU

Here's the lyrics...

Guess this means you're sorry
You're standing at my door
Guess this means you take back
All you said before
Like how much you wanted
Anyone but me
Said you'd never come back
But here you are again

(Chorus)
Cuz we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

Maybe I was stupid
For telling you goodbye
Maybe I was wrong
For tryin' to pick a fight
I know that I've got issues
But you're pretty messed up too
Either way I found out
I'm nothing without you

(Chorus)

Being with you is so dysfunctional
I really shouldn't miss you,
But I can't let you go,
Oh yeah

{ music break}

Cuz we belong together now, yea yea
Forever united here somehow, yea
You got a piece of me
And honestly
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

Cuz we belong (yeah) together now (together now), (yeah)
Forever united here somehow, yea
You got a piece of Me
And honestly
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

Sorry Leon, I can't help it.
Hahahahahaha.
I'm addicted to this song alrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

Tata.
Good night people.
Hehe.

"I am a man now." says Leon.

2009-03-17T08:23:00.000-07:00

Hello readers.

I am here to revive Leon's blog.
Who am I? I am none other than Ang. Ting. Ya.
^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^

Leon asked me to blog for him.
So I'm here to tell you readers that Leon IS alive and doing well in camp.
He seems to have fun... NOT!
Muahahahahahahahhaha.

Good news his booking out on this Friday and he's coming to svc this Saturday!
Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
He'll be glad to know that ya'll are excited to see him.. Hehe.
His batt went flat just a moment ago. So you can't really contact him now.. Aww..
But it's okay! You'll see Leon on saturday! ^^

He says he misses all of us. Awwwwwww.
Yep, he misses E267!!!!!!!!!!!! and Svc...
Yep, he also says that he is a man now... I doubt it... LOLOLLLLLLLOOLLLOLOLOLLOLOL.

p/s Left 4 dead rocks. START PLAYING IT NOW!!!! ^^

Before & After.

2009-03-09T04:53:00.000-07:00

Hey guys , just to let you all know.. i've shaved my head already.. >.<
This was before the chaos..And after it all happened.. this is the outcome.
Sigh.. 12 hours left , and my hair is gone. >.> & somebody doesn't wanna talk to me.

I guess this shall be my last post till i come out. lawls.

See you all soon.

Yours Always,
L.

Tomorrow is the day...

2009-03-08T10:03:00.000-07:00

Sigh , in exactly 26 hours , ill be gone..

For those who came down to accompany me today , omgosh thanks so much man..

Candice & Debbie for the awesome awesome card!
E267's card by meijun! thanks for all of your encouragement guys!
As for the rest ,
Alex - Thanks despite of your booking in , you came to join us!
Andre - Thanks for your company and laughter :)
Lucas - Bro , i really appreciate you alot for making time down!
Eric - You are my bestie for life :) thanks so much.
Mingyang - Thanks for coming down to accompany me.
Johnson - Although we've just talked more not long ago , thanks for coming down too!
Shilin - You're Awesome (:
Jasmine - Thanks for organizing for me! You will forever be a bestie to me too!
Candice Tay - Thanks for coming down too!
Cihui - Thanks for the constant advice on NS-life ^^
Chin Jie - Thanks for making time down!
Pauline - Hey , you too . Stay sweet yeah?
Xiaojiao - THANKS! :) you also made time to come down!
Jialin , Meijun & Melissa - Thank you so much!
Jonah - LOL , you ah.. nothing to say.

P.S If i miss out your name , SORRRY! i can't remember.

Thanks everyone , you really made my day ..
I will not lose the fire! I WILL CARRY ON!
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To that special person ,
Working hard are you..
Sorry for troubling you.
But thinking of you just makes my day,
You take care too , ill miss you.
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Yours always,
L.

Ups & Downs.

2009-03-07T08:49:00.000-08:00

Hey all , today was service day! as usual . hmm , met up with some security mates before service for lunch , chat a little about NS here and there , headed down to expo hall one next!

Well , service was pretty much the same , it was awesome. :P
Talking about man and woman. ^^

Once again , thanks E267 For the nice hat , i know im gonna lose my hair soon , so thanks in advance for my shield! lawls.
After service , we headed over to bedok to have some nice dinner , yeah.. talked alot , laughed alot as usual~ haha, then soon after candice came over ^^.

She is one friendly and cheerful girl :) but sometimes too simple-minded! lol!
Then we went our separate ways .
Today has been great overall. :)
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Hearts frailed,
Minds challenged,
Love turned pale,
Why have you leave me so?

Yours always,
L.

Words of Affirmation pl0x!

2009-03-06T08:47:00.001-08:00

Hey all , back to update.. What do you know? 3 days left? ^^.

Had CGM today.. about love languages haha.
I already took some online quiz about this , so my answers were expected anyway.

Words of Affirmation - 11
Quality Time - 10
Acts of Service - 5
Receiving Gifts - 2
Physical Touch - 2

What do you know? :P , its the truth , i value the time spend with loved ones and i do get charged up when people said awesome stuff about me.
Sadly is , people who are strong in words of affirmation is , they tend to get upset even to the slightest negative opinion one can give. Ah well , i know that i can be strong(hahahaha!) pssh.

Anyway E267 , Thanks so much for the gesture you had made for me heh. although it has been exposed by me but i really do appreciate you guys alot alot... i love you guys so much (:

National service , national service , why thou art be so fast? sigh.
Freedom stripped away ,
Minds turn to grey,
Skies turn dark fast,
Soon the day be over,
Friday be here,
Oh the happiness,
Hiding away .
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You gave me light,
Now sorrow,
Silly am i,
This man,
Whom heart is heavy,
Now, tearing through the night.

Yours always,
L.

Watchmen & Fish & Co.

2009-03-05T08:13:00.000-08:00

Just came home from a night of catching up & fun (: , met the guys at 5.15pm @ TM Talked a lil and headed down to Fish & Co. to get a seat. My friend Jack had a chance to join us because of the field camp he had last week haha. Great to see you buddy ( in short hair :D ) , so we ordered what we wanted to eat , chat much about life and well practically what guys usually talk about , oodles of fun! :D , Kar fai , treated us as i've said on the previous post , thanks alot man! ^^ and of course the movie. The movie we were going to watch starts approximately 8.40pm , and we ended our dinner at 6.45pm , Headed to the arcade , played afew games with the guys & it was still 7.25pm haha. With an hour to spare , eugene wanted to go starbucks , which was eventually closed , then coffee bean was an alternative from me! :D

Sat there for abit , drank abit of coffee , chated .. till it was almost time and headed back to the cinema. Movie was pretty okay , just that it was too much dialog and stuff like that.. Rated M18 , but doesnt seem M18 at all >.> pretty normal , just lots of blood and details were much clearer..
My Rating for it would be 3/5. For the cut off scenes by the censorship .

Overall , it was a great time :) i love my gang of friends , Eugene , Jack , Kar fai & Zaiwei , they are awesome. Hope as time goes by , we would still be close , no matter how far we are..
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What thou feel my darling..
Shall we not see the moonlight tonight?
For so long as the sun continues to shine,
Thus my love for you will never die.

Yours always,
L.

The REAL me!

2009-03-04T09:40:00.001-08:00

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

5 More days!

2009-03-04T06:40:00.000-08:00

Hi everyone , back to bloggyy~ anyway , 5 more days to my enlistment! Just received news from kar fai that tomorrow he'll be treating us dinner and watchmen. haha. Happy for him , he striked 4D $2000 ^^ when he prosper , we prosper too! Getting broke these days .. sigh.

Questions running through my head in and out.

How is it gonna be like?
Where am i gonna do after the 2 years?
How about you my dear, what would happen to me?
Will our mindset change over time?

Its been more than 2 years , what now?
Time extended again..

I .. must... endure... ughh..
For the sake of my destiny.. i must..

Stay strong , have a willing heart..

- L.

Reopening!

2009-03-03T08:08:00.000-08:00

Hey everyone , first of all , thanks Tingya for finding this awesome skin! :D

I think ill be back to blog lawl.. ill try to update as much as i can!

Hehe , Cheers.

- Leon